MIss You

You are leaving

for a place where destiny calls

where another stage of life begins...

It never crossed my mind 

that you will be leaving so soon

I took it for granted

that you will be here till the end

I was so accustomed to your presence

that i thought u would always be here

but no more

If i could keep something belonging to you 

as a remembrance

can i have your smile?

or your warm greetings?

or your personality?

If i could wish for something 

can i wish for more time

so i can have more of you

it makes me sad

when i realise 

i wasted a meeting in life

i hope this will remain forever in my heart

so i will not waste another meeting

One day has passed and another day comes

One journey has ended and there will be a new one

Its time to move on

Brothers and sisters

Good luck and God bless. Miss you. muacks.^^

Come Home, We Are Waiting

I lost you
Losing you is too sudden
i couldnt give any reaction
i couldnt do anything
i stood rooted
stumped

before i could realise
you were away
away in a place where i couldnt reach you
you were a friend
my brother
but it seems
we are so far apart now

we were a family
remember?
how can you leave so easily
im small
insignificant
i dont know the real reason
but
in my heart
i long for your return
come back, okay?

How to Take a Bath :D

Have you ever taken a bath at UTP?
Its different from the one you have at home
At home, you take bath whenever you should
At UTP, you take bath only when you have to
Thats the case for me la at least.
Thanks to the FREAKING cold bath in UTP
which i still cant get used to even after 3 semesters


let you see the bathrooms in my block :)

it sucks
but never mind
this time im going to teach you all how to bathe
i know
you must be thinking wtf
but you think you are very good ah?
u very pro liao lah izit?
taking a bath also must follow procedure one you know


let us not waste our time in delaying
cause i dont have much time
got only a half-day leave from my boss 
girlfriend
err...
my O Chem textbook
cause she said i long time never spend some 'PRIVATE' time with her already
so have to hurry back to her after this
but...
no mood la :(
gf O Chem textbook: what?!
me: i mean... i got LOTSSS of mood tonight babe! 
later we will have our 'private' moment remember?
gf O Chem textbook: yes... see you later! =D
and remember ya? dont forget our date ya?
u know what will happen if you do. (heh heh...)
me: (sweating) yea. see you later. (fuh... lucky...) 


so now you see. 
i have a demanding gf O Chem textbook
so gotta be quick
here it is
Step 1:
Bring all items needed
what you need is:
1 hair shampoo
1 body shampoo
1 pail
1 towel
room keys (remember!!!)
soap (optional)
face scrub (optional)
toothbrush (optional, if you want to brush your teeth)
mic (optional, if you wanna sing while bathing)
handphone (optional, if you are expecting a call from your loved one, ie your mom, your gf, your O Chem textbook...)
oranges (optional, if you want to try eating oranges while bathing)
cup noodles (optional, if you feel hungry suddenly while bathing)
bicycle (optional, if you think your room is too far from the bathroom)
car (optional, if you want to test whether your car can fit in the bathroom anot)
the list goes on and on
basically you can bring what you want la
but normally i just bring these things:

            my yellow pail

            my sunsilk shampoo on my girlfriend O Chem textbook

          my watson body shampoo on my girlfriend O Chem textbook

         my towel :)


Step 2:
walk to the bathroom
what you need is:
a sense of direction 
a pair of slippers (optional, you can always walk bare-footed)
and all those things that you have decided to bring in the 1st step
tips: if you dont know the way just ask 
other people are always willing to help
just dont forget walk to the girls' dorm
no one will believe its an accident :)


Step 3:
Check the water temperature
what you need is: 
a good sensory of heat (...or coldness :P)
good body reflexes
thermometer (optional)
what you are going to do:
after putting down all your things
turn on the tap
and jump back immediately
then slowly put your hands into the shower
test the temperature
then slowly put in your legs
is it too cold?
if it is, then come out IMMEDIATELY!
you may die from frostbite!


Step 4:
Ready, Set, Go!!!
what you need is:
determination
a strong will
a moment of risk-taking mentality
what you are going to do:
if you think you wont die from the coldness
then its time to proceed to this step
so you take a deep breath
ready yourself 
and rush inside the shower!
it will be cold
but you have to persevere!
you have to stay inside 
and suffer while the freezing water is flowing all over you
you have to convince yourself you will survive this
as you have done for the past 400+ days


Step 5:
It's Playtime!
What you need is:
things that you brought from the 1st step
what you are going to do:
wash yourself
sing
eat oranges
bring out your handphone
eat cup noodle
up to you la 
its your time man
i know you are somewhat disappointed for not winning talent search
or going to the finals of talent search
but at least you can win the bathroom singing competition ma
bathroom open talent competition can also
so gambateh la! :P


Step 6:
Time to walk off the stage
What you need is: 
1 towel
What you are going to do:
If you think you have done enough to win the bathroom singing and bathroom open talent competition
then its time to walk off the stage
turn off the tap 
and dry yourself with the towel
and let the next contestant perform


Step 7
Practice makes perfect
What you need:
Practice
What will you do:
Practice daily and you will perfect the art of bathing!


okay la. 
its time to be with my girlfriend O Chem textbook. 
See ya! =D












P.s. You havnt taken off your clothes. XP

My 1st Skype Experience and the Bloody Monday

Installed Skype and created an account

added my friend 

now we can speak to each other

its not typing but having a real-time conversation!

wow! 

what has technology brought us?

this is definitely one of the best things about the Internet!

after some problems that lasted for about half a day

it worked! 

we could hear and see each other

even though not really standing in front of each other

but at least its face to face

even though we are so far apart

but well

because it has been a long while since we last talked

so it was awkward

really awkward

i didnt know what to say!

we laughed? XP

haha. 

what an experience!

yeah

you are right

we should video chat more often

and i should visit you more often

and i need to speak more! XD

and i found that we can skype by just using LAN in the hostel

thats good news!

but i havnt tried it on a real call, just on a test call

just wait.

and thanks for telling me about bloody monday

i like it a lot!

and im a fan of it now

wanna read it a lot but 

im trying to control myself

dont want to finish it all in 2 days do i? XD

p.s. for those who dont know 

bloody monday is a manga

go read it at onemanga

HIGHLY RECOMMENDED! 

below are some of the scenes. they are just AWESOME! XD

this is the first page. attractive? XP

some of the nice scenes.

another nice scene.

another interesting scene.

nice leh. go read la! XD http://www.onemanga.com/Bloody_Monday/

To you and the memories of my sweet 15.

Im not sure whether u will read this 
but just wanna let you know
thanks 
for being my friend for such a long time
3 years and counting
thats long right
for two young people so far away
yes im still young! XP


counting back the years
i was 15
and u were...?
what a tender age
do you still remember how we met?
do you still remember where we met?


me and you
we were young and inexperienced
i still remember 
i remember the games 
i remember the outdoor activities
i remember the rock climbing
i remember how i started climbing and fell off the rock
that was embarassing


i still remember 
how we balanced the log
under the light drizzle
we had to hold on to each other
it was my first time holding a girl's hand

other than my mom's, my aunt's, 

my cousins' and my sis'

oh yeah. the sweet memories of 15.

now im 18

and you are...?

i have grown 

in size and height

i have matured

in thinking and reasoning

you too

have grown up

into a gorgeous teen

an extremely smart one too

with big dreams

with huge goals

with towering ambitions

with confidence

with even more personality

you are as attractive as ever, baby

im a friend, maybe a brother

but like a father

proud of his own daughter

im proud of you

thanks for being here with me

THE END.... or is it? ;D

A Day of Mixed Feelings

Have you had one of those days 
in which you are sitting on a emotional roller-coaster the whole day?
wow! what i had today was really fantastic roller coaster ride
with really highs and luckily-not-so-low "lows" XP


this morning i missed my alarm
which really messed up my morning
FRUSTRATED!
because i was going to have breakfast at 9.15am 
with my church people, watson and christina,
and its our first time too
i set my alarm to ring at 8.15 am
and i slept through the alarm until 9.30am 
actually its my fault 
but i complained to my younger brother why didnt he wake me up XP
sorry lah, "post-sleep blurness" XP


i was late by 15minutes and i guessed they would have left
so i called to apologize 
and to my SURPRISE
watson and christina were still downstairs
waiting for me in their van
so we went for breakfast


we ate "pan mee"
and we chit-chatted a lot
ENJOYED the moment thoroughly 
about their experiences and a few of my batchmates XP
it was a comfortable talk and after meal 
they fetched me back


after lunch
i was surfing the internet and 
through my friend's personal message on gtalk
i found that there are free tickets to be redeemed
to the All American Rejects encore!
by just registering for a DiGi promotion
whoa! EXCITED!
i remembered that i had registered for the promotion 2 weeks before
but i didnt receive the confirmation message from DiGi
thinking there was a mistake i register again
but it was no use
after 10 minutes of endlessly clicking my mouse
i decided to check my inbox
there it was!
i had mistaken it for those annoying promo from DiGi! 
AAARRR! FRUSTRATED!


a few minutes later
my friend aka sister Ivanka XP
told me her brother Sam got an ASEAN scholarship
following in her footsteps
and she was so happy that Sam is going to Singapore too
and im so HAPPY for her and Sam too
because i know they can look after each other
and studying alone in Singapore is tough


Then we chatted chatted and chatted
because it has been long time since i could use MSN to chat
thanks to the blocking program in UTP
we talked about many things
from school to life to relationships to family


And we talked for 8 hours excluding dinner?!
Thats a new record! XD

the painful truth, my caring friend, my life and the moon.

Tonight
Again, i let myself down
it takes a great deal of courage and determination
to face the truth
it requires us to let go of our self consciousness
to tell the truth
it needs us to be true and honest to ourselves
before we can let the world know
the truth


The truth
is something that everyone has a right to
even though 
it may hurt somebody
it may embarrass someone
it is still.... THE TRUTH
i certainly understand this
but i just cant do it
i just cant face the truth
i just cant let go of my self
i just cant be honest with my self
i just cant....


time and again
i remind myself
let him know
let them know
they are my among my most trusted people 
in this whole world
and when the question popped out
i let myself
not only myself 
but also both of us
down
a moment of awkward silence filled in between us
and you 
the most understanding and caring person among my friends
changed the topic 
and brightened up the mood 
and the question floats 
like a kite in the sky without its string
into oblivion


im sorry
im sure you wont mind
because you are as kind as you are
but i cant forgive myself
for stealing away your rights from the truth


yes
the truth
it hurts
it will always hurt
like a permanent scar 
that never heals
the only cure 
is time
and even that
is not a guarantee


i dare not cry in reality
the only way i cry 
is in my sleep
im weak
i know


let me wallow in self-pity
and in a moment
i will appear before you again
as cheerful as ever
as happy as ever
as carefree as ever
as optimistic as ever
as though my life is perfect 
like the full moon 


the moon 
in full bloom
seen from afar
is round, bright and perfect 
showing tranquility
but can you see the craters on its surface?


all i need is to put the mask on again
give me five minutes